My slipped disc journey

First entry that happened in 2019. 

Wow, i really blogged now :) once i start i cant stop. so it goes this way, if I blog, i rarely update my social media. Enough for just one platform to record my journey. 

To summarize, I attended my cousin's wedding in Penang during Chinese New Year, went for work during the CNY week, already complaint on my backpain to my officemate but i thought it was sleep deprivation. Husband was away during the CNY week.

Comes Saturday, I continued my usual routine. Fetch my cleaner, and we went to pasar tani..

Here.... where it all started. 

Came home, went to toilet, resting on my bed and ta-daaaaaaa... I was in pain. Couldn't walk and couldn't move. I asked my cleaner to massage on my back, but it did not ease the pain. Since that day was Emir second last day to be at home before he is back to school, so i forced myself to cook his favorite food - sup daging.. Thank god, my cleaner (Wiwin) was around, so i asked her to prepare the basics. Masak tu oii, separuh badan kot, macam terbongkok-bongkok gitu.. But i still cooked for my son :) Ibu kan.. 

Since i couldn't move, I asked Wiwin to take Grab home. Kesian dia, dia tak suke, tapi terpaksa.. Tinggal-lah ibu dan anak. Emir was a bit worried and helped me immediately when i asked him. Such a loving boy. I texted my husband just to inform him that I couldn't walk. So he thought it was the same problem that i had last year - couldn't walk but tak berapa sakit. He texted Emir and asked Emir to massage my feet and called his sister to accompany me at home. But i asked my SIL not to come (because she was all the way from Puchong and it was already at night) + husband will drive back to KL that night. 

Pendek kata, malam tu tahan sakit.. 

emir berehat lepas tolong mak dia

On Sunday morning (11 Feb 2019), boleh pulak la laki aku cakap "kita balik siap lepas ni nak bawak Emir tengok wayang", guess my reaction -- helooooo aku ni nak bangun tak boleh, nak bawak pulak si emir tengok wayang.. WOW!! marah betul i masa tu terus lah nangis hahahaha..

So, husband came back home and was SHOCKED that i was really really really in pain hahahahaha.. tahu pun!! terkejut dia i jalan setapak setapak. u know it took me like nearly 30 minutes just to get up from bed because i need to find the best position to get up.. sakit sangat ok.. 

But i told my husband to settle Emir's stuff first. cari barang dia and what not and I was really really really really sad for not able to send Emir's back to his school. Sedih sangat.. 

Tinggal-lah i sorang dekat rumah, I opted not to call my father.. -- nanti dia panik.. petang husband balik rumah. But he was too tired, and he slept.. isteri yang solehah ok je, lagipun bukan boleh  jumpe specialist pun.. 

Monday- went to see GP asking for the Referral letter. Nak dapat surat GP tu mak aii... lama sungguh, kebetulan ramai betul orang dalam klinik tu.. i already set my mind to go to Pusrawi, jadi kebetulan Specialist tu ada sampai 12 pm saje..  so tak sempattt! 

and another day to handle the pain.. 

Tuesday, early in the morning, went straight to see the Dr. Dr. examined and when he lift my feet, i sakit. kiri sakit, kanan pun sakit, and he said "confirmed slipped disc".

and he introduced me with the new term "We need to do Radio Frequency".. err what? "RF, no surgery, you dont worry"

While waiting for the GL to be cleared, perut mestilah kene isi jugak.. tak de mood betul nak makan ok.. tengok lah muka i.. bengang sebab husband suruh pose pulak time time orang sakit ni.. grrrr

As expected, to get clearance from insurance was not easy. I waited around 4 hours on the wheelchair, while waiting i already informed the whole family on my situation, and terus adik i datang visit..

meanwhile, dapat je balik, laki i terus setup macam dekat rumah... sabarrrr je lah..

Meanwhile, this is yours truly yang memang menahan diri sakit. Bangun tak boleh, duduk tak boleh, berdiri tak boleh, tido pun tak boleh, pendek kata tak selesa langsung.. On that day itself i dah kene buat MRI and full body x-ray. MRI was just fine.. ye lah baring je.. but not the X-ray. Suruh meniarap lah, baring lah, ke kiri lah ke kanan lah, angkat lutut lah, serious i rasa nak tembak je staff tu hahaha.. sakit ok , but whatever it is, i managed to give a good pose :p

This picture was taken the next day, still in pain, but hell ya.. picture first cos i find out the uniform is quite fashionable - ala-ala Burberry gitu.. Anyway, my doctor is Dr. Sallehuddin Abdullah (Consultant Orthopaedic and Spine Surgeon). Sangat dedicated. Pukul 6.30 pagi dah datang ward checked on me.

and this is why i love my Company (my new department :D)

My problem is at L5- not good in explaining but the treatment is - "rawatan lumbar spine dan lutut".. still kene cucuk full bius. I remembered, i was pushed to OT room, one doctor gave me the injection, and immediately one of the  assistant asked me to change bed, and tadaaa tak ingat apa dah lepas tu.. 

Ni pun officemate yang ambik.. masa ni tak ingat apa dah

I cuma tersedar 3-4 hours after and tadaaaa, my happy pills is here!! My husband called the school and asked permission from the school to bring my happy pills home!! Masa i ni baru tersedar, so sangat lah mamai-mamai..

Not a good picture, but so happy to see the two of them besides me!

Alhamdulillah petang tu juga, i boleh bangun, boleh jalan.. Memang miracle.. my father and my siblings visited me on the same day. lupa ambik gambar.. ye lah mamai lagi kan.. :) 

Alhamdulillah..

So, the next day i received few visitors..

My best-est friend

My officemates - my bosses sebenarnya

Crazy chess parents

My pakcik makcik

My SIL - masa ni tengah fisio.. so gaya pun macam ginilah

My exofficemate

My officemate again.. 

My best friend

My SIL

My blogging friend - pun tak blogging dah 

Alhamdulillah boleh discharged on Friday, two days after the surgery..

token of appreciation to all nurses.. Saya suka Pusrawi sebab sangat mesra pelanggan.. Senyum je.. and saya suka sebab sentiasa dengar orang bagi salam. Setiap kali masuk waktu ada orang azan. ye lah kite sakit, mestilah nak dengar agama kan..

emmm, makanan hospital miss ke tak eh.. ? Ok lah.. but i prefer my cooking lagi walaupun tak sedap hehe

Thank you Dr. Sallehuddin..

HEALTH IS WEALTH :)

Alhamdulillah...

and the bill... 

Thanks Company-ku :D

Last memory of Standard 6

and hello Emir, you should thank me as my blogging mode is on. Ibu just realized that i only uploaded 4 entries for the entire 2018 - perhaps the worst performance as the blogger. :p

Having said that, im trying to save your childhood journey here and for you to understand, ibu and papa always support and you can always rely on us anytime and anywhere.

Standard 6 comes too soon and it ended too fast. I myself couldnt breathe and keep up with the activities that was planned by your school and your dad. I was working my ass off to ensure that I would get a better bonus for 2018 :D so we could go umrah in 2019 insyaAllah..

End of November, your school has organized too many event for Standard 6. It was one after another - which is a good thing! :)

Well, the fun part of being the standard 6 started when you and your friends finished the UPSR and the party started immediately after.. Zaman ibu dulu, tak macam ni pun, ni mak ayah yang prepare ..

I remember your last paper was on Thursday and Papa booked the flight to Chiang mai on Saturday. I disagree at the beginning, ye lah takut ada macam-macam perkara, but Alhamdulillah tak de apa -- another blogging post that i must published (our trip to Chiang Mai)

Errr, after Chiang Mai, most of the time, you skipped school with our permission and you only attended to seat for the final exam at your school.

Comes to the end of  November, satu-satu event yang berlaku.

(1) Hari Penyampaian Anugerah Cemerlang

Because it was not happening every year (no-no we still proud of you :D) so we always look forward to attend Hari Anugerah Cemerlang and this year you managed to achieve no 2 in class. During this time, the school will announce the recipients of Tokoh-tokoh Pelajar and yeah, sadly you did not manage to grab any despite your achievement in academic and as MSSM Gold Medalist. Yes, we didnt target you to grab Tokoh Pelajar, tak target apa-apa pun as we know you may lack of some leadership quality (yes, you manja). But at least the recipients should have good credential to be awarded. Ibu has attended few Anugerah Cemerlang previously and Ibu was totally impressed with the recipients CVs but honestly not your year :). Ibu and Papa exchanged our looks and we were like (eh tu je).. Well, perhaps the school management must have a reason for this la kan :) No worries, you did not feel sad at all, but your friend did. and honestly, he deserved the title..

Ok, enough of drama .. lets celebrate..

Antara cikgu-cikgu yang sentiasa belakang Emir..

Cikgu Diana - guru kelas Darjah satu

Cikgu Shidah - guru kelas Darjah dua

Cikgu Azira - guru kelas darjah 6

Emir ni memang minta ambik gambar dengan Cikgu yang sama je :)

2) Majlis Apresasi Tahun Enam

aka graduation ceremony for standard 6. Semua sekolah sekarang ni budak darjah 6 siap ada convo, siap ada baju jubah. memang over.. but its good to celebrate achievement kan.. Bila orang happy, semua akan happy jugak. Baju jubah pun cantik tu.. Just enjoy the picture lah nothing much .. sama saja, tak ada extra vaganza..

My office mate make a joke on the above picture. Katanya over, anak baru darjah 6 gambar macam dah graduate.. Oh well.. their time will come.. After all it is for memory and was provided by the school, guna je lah. A happy picture should be captured. So once again, their time will come. lets see what will happen.. pandai cakap sangat kan :)

3) Malam Seribu Kenangan

The most challenges time for the parents :D. It was dinner night for Standard 6. The students have to perform during the dinner and im telling you, depa practise macam nak buat show dekat overseas. I said challenges sebab bertapa banyak betul mak bapak kena sabar masa latihan ni berlangsung.. Maybe i dont understamd, but seriously until today i dont understand, the audience was only the standard 6 students and only the standard 6 teachers, tapi practise 3-4 hours per day for 2 months..

I remember, during the night itself, all parents were eager waiting someone to upload the performance via whatsapp.. kiterang nak tengok ape bendelah yang sampai 3-4 jam kene practise. The teachers were not involved in the performance training, mak bapak yang mintak trainer ajarkan (siap ada trainer you .....)

But whatever it is, all kids were very happy during the day itself.. I rasa anak i pun nampak handsome betul malam tu. Suit Emir kami buat di Chiang Mai..

with another mom. we waited for our son to finish from 7-12am hehe, setia menunggu dekat hotel tu.. nak balik nak patah balik malas.. so tunggu je lah dekat lobby hotel, masa ni jugaklah nak update pasal hal-hal sekolah..

and Emir with his classmate..

THE END 

He scored 6As for his UPSR

Salam All 

Alhamdulillah we are back again in 2019. For a record, I just discharged from the hospital due to the slipped disc. but lets put aside my story. Will share, insyaAllah. 

So, how is everyone?? Blogging is no longer an avenue for us to express. Not like before, blogging was a trend, now it becomes outdated.. budak sekarang akan cakap.. what?? blogging ?? 

So there you go.. of cos i would like to update on my Emir... 

All these pictures were taken during the UPSR announcment day.. :)

Emir with his mates queuing-up to take the result slip..

Tho 2018 has long closed its diary, but i should record this moment.

Alhamdulillah, Emir scored 6As for his UPSR!!

It was tears of joy from my side. As a mother, I’ve seen him struggling to manage the expectations either from me, his father and also his teachers. Up until August, he was still competing for Chess tournament (MSSM) and I think he only has a week to do some revision before the UPSR trial. Yerp, Alhamdulillah he scored straight As for his UPSR trial too..

Honestly, I didn’t put much hope on his result especially for BMs, even his teacher asked me to “kita tawakal ye Puan” hehe. His BM is crazy. He refused to read BM books and will spend less time to do revision on BMs. Yes, dia tak suke BM. :D and Emir has this attitude, tak suka memang dia tak suka lah- very choleric type of person.

Along the way, I guess, Allah helps him. A lot. Kalau kenang-kenangkan zaman dia dekat sekolah rendah, kesian juga. He is ok but actually not ok. But anyhow, he managed to instill positive vibes inside him which I am proud of. Im not sure whether I am able to be like him if I am in his shoes. Allah knows best. Peer pressure is really a thing OK! Thought wanna share it here, but well, its not a good idea, after all, past is past kan. Emir pun dah happy sekarang.

Cuma nak cakap, we as a parent, we cant no longer refer to the older parenting. We have to learn according to the time. Budak sekarang, kite kene sentiasa berkongsi cerita, berkongsi rasa, jadi dia akan rasa kita rapat dengan dia dan dia akan lebih terbuka bila bercakap dengan kita. Semasa Emir menghadapi saat-saat mencabar dalam hidup dia, he shared his story with me. And im happy because he is still trusting me as a person who can ease his worries. Alhamdulillah all good 

Back to the day when the result was announced, it was a week after the school holidays. It was scheduled to be announced at 10am but was delayed to 11am. But we know the result earlier hahaha.. SMS pukul 10 dah keluar dah..

And you know what..

Now only I know how our parents feel when we delivered the good news to them. Oiii bagilah satu juta pun tak sama rasanya.. Dahla saya ni anak sorang.. Alhamdulillah dapat jugaklah merasa kejayaan anak.. Emir? You can see the video, he has noooooooo emotion.. tak ada perasaan langsung.. 

Kejayaan Emir juga adalah hasil didikan guru-guru Emir. I always believe, teamwork makes the dream works. Usaha bukan hanya setakat pada Emir, pada mak ayah dia, pada cikgu dia. Sama-sama kena usaha, sama-sama kena jaga ukhuwah. I against some parents (u know-lah some SKBD parents :p) yang keje dia asyik complaint je.. To me, Cikgu pun manusia, kalau kite layan dengan baik, kebaikkan tu akan dapat semula kepada anak kita indirectly. So i always maintain good relationship with Emir's teachers. walaupun hakikatnya papa Emir yang lagi baik dengan Cikgu-Cikgu :p

Cikgu Emir - Cikgu Dhabitah masa Emir Darjah 3

Cikgu Emir - Cikgu Shidah masa darjah 2. Anak Cikgu Shidah jadi anak murid emir dalam Chess :)

Cikgu Hafiz - Cikgu Tusyen Sains Emir

Cikgu Farizal - cikgu yang palingggg budak takut hahaha tapi palinggg budak sayang..

Cikgu Faiz - cikgu ni panjang dia bagi nasihat dekat Emir.. Paling i tak boleh lupa Cikgu cakap dekat Emir "kita kena selalu berhati-hati apatah lagi Emir nampak sangat budak baik, jangan senang terikut"

Cikgu Azira - guru kelas Emir darjah 6. Cikgu darjah 6 memang mencabar. Mereka ni takde cuti selagi budak-budak tak exam.. Sangat dedicated dan Emir sangat bertuah..

Dan dalam banyak-banyak Cikgu, Emir sangat bertuah dikurniakan Teacher Asmitta. Teacher yang telah menjaga Emir sejak dari tadika. Teacher yang mengajar Emir tusyen Mathematics sehinggalah Emir darjah 6. Walaupun Teacher Asmitta bukan cikgu Sekolah, tapi hai--- dia jaga Emir macam jaga anak sendiri.. Emir pun sangat sangat sayang Teacher Asmitta dia.. and i continue to send Emir for tuition there...

Lagi satu Cikgu Emir yang paling dedicated is Cikgu Noraidah. Gambar atas Emir bersama Cikgu Noraidah di hari terakhir and anakanda saya menangis.. Dapat Cikgu Noraidah adalah kebetulan sebab rasanya harapan tipis. I memang memerlukan seorang Cikgu BM yang dapat drill Emir. and Cikgu Noraidah adalah Cikgu yang sangat popular. Rezeki, dapat juga tempat untuk diajar dengan Cikgu walaupun last minute. Cikgu Noraidah sangat concern.. Always update what homework she gave, kalau anak tak siap, mak pun ada notice jugak .. Paling terharu Cikgu siap percepatkan urusan ibadah hajinya untuk make sure Cikgu ada masa UPSR. Memang jasa cikgu-cikgu ni tak terbalas.

Gambar ni pun menarik juga, dari kiri Muiz, Irfan and Emir. They have been together since kindergarten.. and all of them scored 6As :)

  

Emir & Aliff - not knowing they ended up in the same boarding school.. same dorm juga..

and parents. I am not good in this department, perhaps i rarely be in the school as compared to my husband.. but as and when i will always give any other parents full support..

dan gambar yang akan saya kenang sehingga akhir hayat adalah gambar ini. Betapa lamanya bapa saya (atok Emir) menatap result slip Emir. Saya sangat bersyukur diberikan peluang untuk berkongsi rasa ini dengan bapa saya.. I know he is proud.. (because i saw him texting to his friends on Emir's achievement).. Bahagia sangat rasa.. Alhamdulillah.. 

Dan terima kasih SKBD untuk segala kenangan..

Boarding or non boarding

 

Having a son who will reach 13 by next year, I have lot in mind. Whether or not I should let him go for boarding school is a big question. I find parenting is hard now especially when decision making is important to ensure that he gets the best of him.

So, both husband and I have had few serious discussion on whether or not we should let him go on his own. We have even listed down the positive and negative side of our decision.

First, Emir himself. We supported him in each and everyway, but on the flip side, everything is made easy for him. I would love to see him to be more independent and matured because in a long run, he gonna live on his own, with no backup from his parents, and it should start from now. Looking at his character, he needs to be pushed, and the best decision is to send him for boarding school.

Many will disagree, even my own mother. To him, daily school is sufficient to shape a person, I agree. From my experienced dealing in selection process and based on my analysis, I found out that daily school performed better in terms of resilience and communication as compared to boarding school students.

But as a mother, I want him to step up from his comfort zone. No doubt, the character building for those in boarding school is far better than the daily school. You can easily tell a person if he is from MCKK or from SMK Bukit Bandaraya (sorry, I cant think any school).

But, there you go, it comes with limitation. We (read: I) only let him go if the school is up until Putrajaya :)  Poyo much. Yes, because I may want to visit him every single week, both Saturday and Sunday haha. Otherwise, yes thank you, any daily school in KL.

Speaking of that, Emir would love to continue to be in KL school as he really "sayang" his KL chess team. The teamwork and friendship that he created may not be the same at other states.

But yeah, truly, it depends on his UPSR result which makes me feel hmmphh and ummpphh especially thinking of his Bahasa Melayu. Honestly, whatever the result is, we are OK as he has a long way to go and UPSR is not everything.

My own mission is for him to secure a sponsorship to study abroad because I personally couldn't afford to fund his overseas education. Yes, he MUST ensure admission for overseas university because there is one fine line between local and overseas graduates. Saya pun dari UTP saje, so yes I can tell the difference too.

Insyallah, ini semua perancangan.. From an eye of a mother..