Hi and Salam

Sebenarnye tak de rase nak update blog, tapi macam terpanggil untuk taip sesuatu selepas tengok video ni.. Please click here if you are interested to watch. Caution: mothers please do think twice ok. I took this video from Nina's friend.

Honestly, leaving behing my ex-maid with Emir did haunt me up until now. Rase itulah kesalahan besar yang I buat sepanjang besarkan Emir. Bukannyer ape, saya memang dibesarkan bersama pembantu-pembantu rumah. Walaupun I datang dari adik beradik yang ramai, I might say, my mum was very lucky sebab majoriti maid maid mak I semua nyer Ok. adalah sorang dua, tapi still considered ok dan saya mempunyai perception, nursery is not the best place to place your kids. I mean kalau demam semua demam, kalau sakit semua sakit. Thats my perception.

Dan sebab itu pade mulenye saya terpanggil menghabiskan duit saya sebanyak RM6k untuk ambik maid. Mase tu umur Emir 8 bulan, dan saya tak nak menyusahkan maid mak saye yang baik hati tu. dan mase tu jugak bulan Mac di mana saya dah start busy, sebab kalau maid mak i jage anak i, it means that she has to sleep quite late to finish her works / house chores. dan confirm bulan-bulan itu saya balik lambat.

Yes, I stayed with my mum at that time, but my mum is a working mother. Dia bukan macam nenek-nenek dulu yang ade mase nak belek cucu ke ape. Dia balik pun dah penat, adik-adik still sekolah and still needs attention from my mum - homework lah tuition lah.. So thats the reason, tak nak menyusah kan orang, I took the option to have a maid.

Bile sampai, badan dia besar, suara dia lembut, muke tak macam Indon and memang pade mule I nampak dia ni quite literate which it was easier for me to teach her. She came in March and that time I stayed with my mum. Sampai lah bulan Oktober in the same year, lepas dapat kunci I amik decision to move to my new house.

My parents was bit worried when I voiced out to move out of the house. Memang mase dekat rumah mak i pun, adik I ade bagi tau maid ni amik barang-barang, even she took my night gown ok. Tapi i just pekak kan telinge and didnt say any word sebab i rase dia jage anak i ok. Tak de issue. dan yang pasti saya tahu dia ni memang malas.

Yes, I moved to my new house. and yes, saye tinggalkan Emir 100% alone with her. Dan sampai sekarang, saya rase menyesal tak pujuk Emran betul2 untuk letak CCTV, dah plan tapi asyik tangguh jer.

As i said before, dia ni memang pemalas. Selalu terpikir, ape lah dia buat satu hari dekat rumah, dengan baju i tak bercuci, mop lantai pun jarang dan saya, I rase i adalah sorang majikan yang sangat baik. Saya menagku another big mistake is saya tak pernah marah dia. Sebabnyer, saye terfikir, kalau marah dia, saya bukan tahu ape dia buat dekat anak saya nanti. So saye biar je. But in front of us, seriously I tak de rase yang dia ni nak lari dari rumah.

DAN SAYA TAK RASE DIA NAK PUKUL EMIR KE APE..

Mase dia nak lari rumah, memang dia sangat pemalas, baju tak cuci, masak ala kadar, tapi I diamkan jer. Tak kuasa nak marah. and i know dia curi and amik duit kiterang. I pernah buat spotcheck and yes, ade jumpe barang-barang but again, I tak marah dia. Depan kiterang dia memang lah baik.

Ramai orang cakap kat I jangan bagi muke, but seriously I tak pernah sekali pun tengok mak i marah my maid. Geram ade tapi dia tak pernah tengking maid ni macam i penah tengok orang lain tengking maid. My mum was not like that and I learnt this from her.

Sampai lah dia lari pun, I menangis giler-giler, sebab I tak paham kenape I ni yang baik sangat ni, dia still nak lari dan saya rase sangat tertipu. Takkan lah dia jage Emir pade kecik, dia tak de rase kesian langsung dekat Emir and dia memang sedia maklum mase dia lari tu, I was damn busy with my peak period. Balik lambat all the time. And mase tu jugak Emir dalam 1 tahun 8 bulan gitu. Sebab kebaikan dia dekat Emir tulah, yang buatkan saya malas nak marah-marah dia. Untuk I, I rase dia jage Emir sampai jugak ape yang I expect.

Until.........

I sent Emir to the nursery. I tak sure lah betul ke tak, b ut the teacher told us ade kesan-kesan lebam macam kene cubit dekat peha Emir. Macam orang kate lah, takkan la I tak perasan, I rase I memang perasan tapi I rase sebab I tertutup dengan kononnyer kebaikan dia, I rase lebam-lebam tu macam kene gigit nyamuk macam gitulah. Sampai sekarang, saya dok terpikir ape lah lagi yang dia buat yang I tak tau, and I memang menyesal jugak..

Walaupun hidup I sekarang kelam kabut, penat nyer bukan main, tapi hati i tenang. I tak pyah nak fikir masalah orang lain yang bukan dari keluarge I. I tak yah nak risau-risau pasal Emir dan saya sangat gembira dengan perubahan Emir. KAlau tak kerana dia tak lari, I takkan hantar dia ke sekolah.

memang mak i agak disagree sikit i hantar nursery. Dia memamng kate kesian Emir, kecik-kecik dah kene kejut mandi pergi sekolah padahal umur dia, dia patut ade banyak kebebasan. But i think I dont have a choice unless my mum dah retire and able to watch the maid all the time.

Kadang-kadang teringin jugak nak maid, especially jage kebersihan rumah. I seriously nak sangat rumah i 24 hours guest ready. Memang saya teringin nak panggil weeekly maid, mati-mati I mintak permission from my hubby tapi dia tak bagi. Once a week ke, sekali dua minggu pun tak pe, but still dia tak bagi. Paling i nak, I dont want to see any more kesan-kesan maid I dulu dekat rumah I, but until now, the room is still the same. no changes from the first day she left. Honestly, bende ni laa yang paling I frust sekali. But yeah, wife is always be a wife and syurga isteri bawah tapak kaki suami.

So do I need a maid in the future, most probably yes. But yeah, buat mase sekarang ni I tak terpikir langsung lagi, except for the weekly maid.

p/s sorry laa bahasa berterabur sikit

As you know, my parents are currently working in United States. Therefore, we took this ooportunity to sell

COACH bags..

Coach lovers open your eyes ya!! It just me, tak de mase lagi nak upload gambar, and I do wait for the Coach-es safely arrive here in Malaysia..

more designer bags are expected to be part of this blog!! and my mum said, she accepts pre-order for any designer bag provided that the boutique is either in Maryland, Delaware or Washington D.C.

Sekian terima kasih..

'Mommy thingy' from Mama Asrar.

1. Admit one thing you feel awful about (involving being a mom). Once you have written it down, you are no longer allowed to feel bad. Remember you are a good mom!

A piece of advise, if you are married, please forget to work in any audit firm cos it makes you go crazy. Seriously, as for me, this year, is the worst compliance ever, im tired physically and mentally. Because of this crazy work that I have to carry on, its possible for me to spend more time with my beloved Emir and its been a while I didnt borak-borak panjang with his teachers, ape tah lagi ambil dan menghantar anakku sayang ini ke sekolah.

And the worst part.dapur i tak berasap.. I hate the fact that my hubby and my son eat outside food for almost one or two months. Im not a great cook but if possible, I would love them to eat, chew and swallow my air tangan ini..

2. List 7 things you love about your kids, you love doing with your kids, or that your kids love about you.

1. Emir loves whatever food I like.. seriously.. tak caye tanye Emran
2. Everyday is a new day for me especially listening to his new vocabs. Nowadays, he loves to say "Ohh dear" wherever barang jatuh ke, atau ape bende yang tak kene
3. Emir is a stubborn and determined boy, Kalau putih putihlah, no hitam biru coklat atau sebagainya
4. He is a computer freak, I might say, with his age, i think he is very good in operating the computer. From switching on the computer, bukak any application that he likes (games, youtube, paint) and switching off the computer is normal for him. Sudah banyak orang terkejut tengok dia main game dan menang. (simple game laa kan) and... I dont think I like it laa kan sebab he is too young to be introduced to a computer.. But sometimes I dunno how to avoid it since hubby couldnt live without Internet at all
5. I love his smile, loves his smile..hatiku boleh cair in a split second
6. Sangat lemah when he says "Abu hug me please" or "Abu dont cry, Emir ade" .. isnt he lovely..
7. Suke tidor lambat, and bangun lambat.. haish.. tak sesuai kan..

3. Send this to 5 other moms of the year that deserve a reminder that they too are the best moms that they can be. Remember to send them a note letting them know you have selected them, and also add a link to your post that directs people back to the person who nominated you.

Sape-sape pun boleh..

Credit to Mama Asrar

Happy Earth Hour

Before... 8.29pm

After 8.35pm
Picture courtesy of Mr. Husband's collection..

What happened to the mother and son? Well, after long hours at work, I have decided not to follow my hubby and just resting at home playing with my son. Yeah, Im working today. sob sob sob. At first, I definitely sure I would support the Earth Hour until...

Emir managed to grab the Dugro and dropped it.. I softly told him ..

"Emir, susu tumpah, nanti semut datang, biar Ibu buat"

"No, I want wat kuku (no, I want buat susu)

"No" Sambil si ibu terus buat susu dan memasukkan Dugro dalam botol susu.

"Nah susu"

Yes, si kenit ni amik susu, BUT he throwed the bottle!

Pantang lah kan campak makanan makanan ni..

So, i amik tapak tangan dia dan pukul dia.. secara pelahan ok.

He cried cried cried and shouted..

"Abu go away, abu go away"

"You want me to go away?"

"Yes"

"Then you will stay alone, no Papa (Papa off amik gambar Earth Hour), no Abu, nak?"

He nodded and said "Abu go away pleaseeeeeeeeeeee"

"Ok fine, dont call me"

Abu = Ibu

Lalu si ibu menyorok kan diri di dalam salah satu bilik yang gelap dan ber EArth Hour dalam tu. and this little fella, stopped crying and resume his activities like normal. Sabar je lah. I heard him opened and closed the fridge, watching Pocoyo.. Main slide dia tu..

dan si Ibu yang berpanas dalam tu, mulalah saje nak menakutkan si anak, lalu mengambil kain kain dan menutup mulut, sambil membuat suara yang sangat nyaring.. (Note: I think after 15 minutes kot)

"EMIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR"

No response.

"EMIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR"

"Go away" .. Kureng punyer budak..

Lalu makin nyaring lagi dan lagi dan lagi.. And I could hear his footsteps searching for me..

"Abuuuuuu, abuuu.." Note: He didnt cry at all..

"Wat abu, wat abu, just now you asked me to go away"

"Noo.. Abu come back here".. Hah tahu takut..

"I dont want" mase tu i nampak dia kat dapur.

"Aik (yes, he loves to say aik). wheres Abu"

"No abu, Abu go away, you dont want me just now"

"No, I want Abu, come back here"

Lalu si ibu ni keluar lah dari kurungan dia dan menunjukkan diri. But guess what, He was in his toy car, relaks aje.. and when he saw me..

"Hai Abu"..

Hmmppphh.. bertuah kan..

Do you know that I have never bought diapers which cost more than RM35 since Emir was born :D Well, ok macam tipu pulak kan. When Emir was born, I think until he was 6 months old, we were using MamyPoko and until one fine day we decided to change since MamyPoko cost about RM42 per pack with only40 pieces (betul ke) and I am one of the beautiful mothers out there who love to change her child diaper once in 4 hours haha. So bayangkanlah.

And since then, I always watch out for any Tesco, Giant, Carrefour ads for the diapers promotion but I am only interested either Huggies or Drypers. Those who knows, last time we used to purchase Drypers at RM29+ per pack but nowadays (after the increased in petrol), susah bangat nak jumpe angke RM29.

And everytime during the promotion, I would make it compulsory to buy as many as I can and ALWAYS it would last until the next promotion. And last week, we bought another 7 packs of Drypers at Tesco which cost about RM32+ per pack and I think it would last for the next 3 months. Gambar at atas tu 5 jer. lagi dua dalam kerete..

Yes, it worth it. Saya suke membeli jika berbaloi, cos I can used that extra money to dine tempat best best, And this time, Dugro Emir pun its on promotion. So I spent almost bape ratush ringgit heh borong Drypers Emir and his DugroS...

went with emir yesterday...here some picture of him..





and few others...

I have attended two Kenduris in one day.. Then, guess what, after the kenduris, went straight to my second home -- MY Office.. :(

Anyway, congratulations to Usamah & Wife, and Zamuni and Nadia.. One thing i love to attend the kenduri is this is only way, I can reunite back with my relatives and friend.

Usamah is my ex school mate since we were in Taman Melawati. Then he went to MRSM PC while I went to MRSM Jasin. When I was in UTP, my roommate always talked bout this girl, Mek (sorry Samah aku lupe name bini ko :p) like I knew her for years. And out of sudden, one fine day at Jusco, Usamah "spot" me chasing my son at Jusco Wangsa Maju. And when we were talking, honestly I didnt concentrate that much since the girl besides him seems to familiar to my eyes until she introduced her name and wah-la, I got shocked of my life. Yelah kan. its a small world man..

Congratulations!!

Then we went to another kenduri in Keramat. She was my ex-colleague way back in Stamford and she was my kaki everywhere i go. After a lot of hard time, she found her sweet heart which she met via Internet (yeay, another person after me). I think those who are PTD knows who her husband is.

Ina, another kaki of mine with her son Adam Jibrail.

With Azreen and Milah

With Ujie!! tengok Ujie macam tak percaye je dia mengandung hehehhe... Oh, Ujie is my kaki to go for shopping mase i kat UTP dulu..

p/s sorry lah gambar berterabur, malas nak susun :D

I think this picture was freshly taken after Sarah Alyssa was born. My oh my, can u see her hair?? Original ok, if you are thinking this baby comes from a mixed parentage, you are wrong :) Congratulations to Chor and Kak Wanie!! More inspiring story about the arrival of this cute baby -- here

Anyway, I know that the clock is ticking at 2.24 am and im still here, in front of the computer and I too realise that Im working tomorrow. But let me tell you this, I went back home around 9+pm, Emir demanded me to breastfeed him in the car which i refused and mulalah satu cerite.. But guess what, with Emir shouted, cried and whatsoever, I managed to have my dinner without any rushed. Hehehe. Yeah, i ignored him. Then only I consoled him, which took a while also and at last, he slept. The not so best part was, I slept exactly after my dinner and I forgot to drink a glass of water. and 140 baru terjage. So, tak sampai sejam la kan..

Anyway, my question here, is toddler temper tantrum is normal? Emir recently has this temper tantrum all the time. Well, this is seriously something new to us. I understand at this age, he is know trying to show his personality, where more things must be done in his own way. Sometimes, I feel like he has the mothers of all temper tantrums, I do lost my temper sometimes, but most of the time, I managed to take a deep breath and resume my work as normal.

Emir can "perform" his temper tantrum anytime and anywhere. Somtimes in front of the big crowd in the shopping mall, sometimes in the middle of the night and it just cause by a small issue. Like today, he demanded me to bf him in the car, padahal I told him to wait until we reached home (which is about 5 minutes away), mind you, he knows well that we were nearing to our home. Then we parked our car, half way to our house, he screamed and demanded to lock the car, which I refused again. Sebab dah half way, lepas tu, i have to carry him and im tired. Then, masuk je rumah, he wouldnt let me to take off my tudung, and refused to bf (pulak dah). I told him I wanted to eat, and he just repeatedly shouted "Emir tak nak kuku abu - i.e. Emir tanak susu Ibu.., I told him, kalau tak nak, then let me eat. but he against it. Since I was damn starving, so I just peacefully have my dinner. You know what he did, he throw all the things on the table (duit syiling, paper), I makan bungkus je.. and tried to grab my food- to throw it away. He climbed up front left right since I on the other hand, tried to protect my food. And with his long fingernails, he scratched my face.. (sakit woo)

If this is a sign of having a second child syndrome, alhamdulillah lah but, it is not. Im surely it is not. Ini baru satu, banyak lagi cerite. KAlau dekat Tesco, lagi tensen, nak tolak trolly sendiri, i mean the big trolley and hit everyone there. haih.. and with his Papa recently, he insisted to "drive" the car when Papa was driving the car and Papa jentik dia sekuat hati, If not, he forced himself to be on the driver seat. Bahaya tu.

Hmm.. how do you deal with them? Pukul, ignore?, in Emir's case, softly advising him when he is on his tantrum DOES NOT WORK. But the best part, when he is already calm down, he will tell back the story like "adi, Emir want fetch Abu, papa wat Emir, I want car, Papa ched "Emir sheat, Papa aiv, papa.., Emir kai (Translation: Tadi, Emir nak fetch Ibu, Papa buat Emir, Emir nak drive, Papa said, Emir seat, papa drive, lepas tu Emir cry) (suara siap buat suara garau tu, imitating his father yang marah sambil tunjuk the way papa dia jentik dia..)..

Im 27 since yesterday....

Alhamdulillah...

Nothing much to say, only Allah knows how I feel.

p/s Terima kasih kepada semua yang mengwish yer.. kat Facebook, dekat email, SMS, YM and phone calls

Mulai tadi saya sudah mula menghantar Resume. Jadi saya rase, ini sudah pasti saya tidak akan menjengah lagi Compliance, peak period, melayan client, melayan staff, melayan manager, melayan hati yang senang sangat nak marah lagi. YEAY!! Saya rase sangatlah berdosa mengcursing orang, jadi cukupla rasenya ini yang terakhir untuk saya. Saya tak nak buat jahat lagi.

Terima kasih kepada mereka yang mengemail saya dan mengatakan mungkin ade Vacancy. wah la wei. walaupun belum tentu dapat tapi ade jugak vacancy di saat-saat ekonomi sedang merudum. Memang benar, jangan tukar kerja masa ekonomi tengah meleset, tapi mungkin di musim ekonomi merudum, rezeki saya datang. Iya, rezeki tak boleh dibau, Itulah yang saya katakan juga kepada Adik saya di Manchester sana. Ye sayang ku Jiji..

Encik suami memberi idea untuk saya menjadi pensyarah ,tetapi saya tidak pandai dan saya malas nak mengupdate diri saya, maksudnye, saya nak orang yang jadi pensyarah ni biarlah dikalangan mereka yang memang berilmu dan sangat berminat dengan ilmu. Ya, saya bukan dikalangan itu, tetapi suami saya ya. Sebab itu dia suka jadi pensyarah dari kerja makan gaji di syarikat-syarikat. Dan salah satu saya suke pasal suami saya adalah ilmu yang dia ada. Saya akan jadi sangat geram bile dia tidak mahu menjawab soalan saya, sedangkan saya tahu dia tahu. You can ask him anything, Properties, share, Computer, Politics, technology,Economics, Sports ade satu lagi yang membuatkan telefon dia tak berhenti2 bunyi - kawan-kawan dia buat macam library bergerak pulak, call dia tanye pasal photography. Techniques, skills yang saya tak paham. .. Orang suruh buat duit dengan kamera dia, dia tak nak, Ok saya bukan mate duitan, tapi kalau tiap2 minggu keluar ambik gambar, at least bawak duit kat kite seratus dua balik best jugak kan.. Gambar2 ni semua, antara koleksi dia

Tapi ilmu agama dia tak khatam lagi :p dan suami saya ade jawapan dan idea yang saya rase sangat baik.

Oh berbalik pasal kerja, maaflah, saya memang agak emosi sikit bila tibanya musim ini. hari ni saya tension sebab saya draft keje, eh bukan sebab saya draft, saya agak ok bab itu, tapi saya geram, boleh pulak saya salah. aiyoo malu woo kalau Senior buat salah. Well, itu adalah salah satu saya tak suke keje saya, sebab dengan position saya sekarang ni, it should be error free dan semua expect kite tahu semua.. careless mistakelagi.. haihsh... saya tak tau laa derang tahu ke tak, everyday is a learning process.

Lagi satu saya tengah emo sangat, siapa yang tahu tahu lah. berkenaan dengan yang "tak keluar" tu.. kalau ya bukan, silalah keluar.. ini tidak.

ok, nanti-nanti saya cerite pasal Emir yer.. asyik cerite pasal mak dia jer.. hehe kasik can laa yer..