English

I have understood English for ages but as you can see it isn't very good yet. I used to be very unconfident when it comes to speak English even though I read a big pile of books written in English without any problems.

I have put a lot of effort in improving my English especially in writing, because to me, from writing, it portrays how my performance in English. Therefore, one of my self-improvement is writing some of my blog entries in English even though Im sure theres a lot of grammatical and spelling error. But who cares rite?

A few people care. That is the fact, this people I might say humiliating "US" who writes in English as if we are not recognizing our Malay language. Come on, you are sooo lucky, staying abroad and surrounded with the mat saleh, of course English is your medium and no doubt in one year you can speak fluently plus with the accent. I am not jealous, but somehow you should give more respect and put yourself in our shoes. End of story.

By the way, in my opinion, the best way to improve our English is watching tv without reading the subtitle. I have been doing this for a quite sometimes, but when I watch CSI, I really need the subtitle sebab memang mira mengaku mira susah nak paham. Hehe. In conclusion, (ade conclusion pulak :D) its worth to develop you English skills as a large part of the written material in the world is in English, so I supppose that it’s bound to be helpful at some point.

Tembam

It is not funny telling everyone that i have gain my weight, but for me, nothing should be ashamed even though it is one of my worst nightmare!! Quite simply, I put on weight after getting married. Tremendously increased! I just checked my BMI and this is the result..

You have a Body Mass Index of ***

This suggests you are slightly overweight.

You may be a risk for health problems including type 2 diabetes, cardiovascular disease and high blood pressure.

O-oh! I know we should reduce our intake of sugar and salt because they can cause tooth decay, weight problems, high cholestorol and can clog up the arteies. But.. macam susah je. Imagine, whenever I said im craving for something, hubby will cook or buying the food for me. Sometimes it is already middle of the night but still he will do it for me. Oh, my hubby can cook!! Spoilt kan :p

But, after seeing my weight is 6-8kg increased, this is the time for me to change my eating habit. 6-8 kg banyak gile tau tak, especially when i just stay at home and doing nothing. So for the beginning, i must discipline myself to drink at least 1000ml per day and swimming! Dah nak dekat sebulan setengah dah tak swimming. ish ish ish..

By the way, for your info, my tummy is only consists of FAT, so nothing to do with it :) I know you can understand what i mean.. Hari ni saje ubah lagu, i know this song is already outdated but i love it!! and Hari ni dalam sejarah, 2 August, if i still working at S**M***D college, so today it marks my first year working with them and my contact ends today.. Haha. Kejap kan setahun.. Im looking forward for the next 2nd August.. apa jadi kat mira erk

Jalan-jalan KL TOWER

Last week, makcik (maid) balik Indonesia for good. Makcik ni die dah keje dengan kiterang (correction:with my mum) for almost 4 years. She has helped us alot especially in taking of my great grandma and my late grandma. And not to forget, my siblings including ME!! :D One good thing i learn from my mum is being good to everyone regardless of their race, standard of living and etc because in return they will appreciate us.

I have seen a few people who really shows their "taiko" to their maid as if they conquered the world. Yelling, shouting and torturing them in front of my eyes!!; or to be exact in front of the guests. So, i wonder what happen to their maid behind the scene? But somehow, kene jugak tunjuk kite ni boss, kalau tak, derang pulak naik lemak. Talking about maid, i have a lot of stories to be shared. Yeah, i have been staying with maid since i was born!! Those who came from Indonesia (a few), my gosh, im telling you, we even have to teach them how to brush their teeth!! seriously!! But alhamdullilah, neither of them had being rude to my mum and us, even though i understand that they have a lot of house work!

But, we experienced one of them (a local) who ran away with my mum's and my late grandma's money, silks, and my mum's jewelleries. The first time she came to our house, she was so humble and soft spoken. Die lari lepas 3 hari duduk rumah tu. That time I was 14, and my youngest sister was a few months old. Alhamdulillah, die tak ambik Ika!! I remembered the first question Baba asked "Baby ade tak?" Maid maid..

Ok, back to the story, Em & me bawak makcik jalan-jalan pi KL tower and we went there by PUTRA and monorail. She was so excited because that was the first time, naik ketapi.. Heres the pic!!

Ni laa gambar makcik tu mase dekat atas KL Tower

Em kate gambar ni susah nak ambik, sebab gambar ni die nak amik KLCC n me. Susah sebab reflection and flash tak sesuaiii.. Tapi at last it becomes my fav pic!! Anyway, mira cari Melawati area and Taman Desa tak jumpe, hampeh betul.. paling tinggi nampak Jusco W Maju ngan Highland Towers

Ni pun mira suke jugak gambak ni.. i like the scene but not ME!!

With the best photographer in my life and part of Wan Faziatul Amira.. heheh

What went wrong??

Im back from a long hiatus, am not going anywhere, need some space to console myself *sigh.. Anyway, Malaysia headlines's becomes more interesting day by day..

a)Macam mana orang boleh tersesat begitu jauh sehingga berani menegakkan benang yang basah? Macam mana orang boleh mempertahankan perkara yang terang-terangan melanggar ajaran Islam terutamanya.

Semalam sewaktu menonton Edisi Siasat, I was very very surprised, I repeat, very very surprised to watch an old lady wearing a tudung told the reporters..

"Makcik dah gerenti masuk syurga, yelah rasul cakap macam tu, kalau rasul dah cakap mestilah betul" Nauzubilllah. Dan seorang lelaki tua yang menggelarkan diri die sebagai rasul "Ada diturunkan ayat Quran yang membenarkan seseorang tu menjadi rasul".. Betapa sesat nya mereka.

The question is what we are going to do? What is our action? What went wrong with our education because some of the followers is coming from educated background. Doa memang doa, tapi kite mestilah bergerak jugak, but how?

b) I never write about Akademi Fantasia 3, yeah but now i will. Before im going too far, i am not fanatic about AF but i do admit i am a big fan of AF. All the contestants are one step ahead before getting the result although we can absolutely guess who is the winner. The standard in AF3 is too high compared to the previous AF which is good for the industry. But above all, i couldnt accept when the audinece gets too carried away with their emotion. Why you have to waste your tears? and your RM? Our music industry is too small where you can even knocked their door and asked for their signature without any fear. Kalau kat Melawati ni, sampai dah tak terlarat dah tengok artis-artis ni. So, again, dont be too pathetic.. please..

c) This is not the headlines but today is a special day for my sister, Wan Nur Azira who is celebrating her 19th Birthday today. If you are reading this, sorry dear, this year i could nt afford to buy you any present but i always pray the best for you.

Oh, Im In Love

For my lovely hubby

Mencintai mu
Seumur hidup ku
Selamanya
Setia menanti

Walau di hati saja
Seluruh hidup ku
Selamanya
Kau tetap milik ku

Hanya satu yang tak mungkin kembali
Hanya satu yang tak pernah terjadi
Segalanya teramat berarti di hati ku
Selamanya...

Mencintai mu
Seumur hidup ku
Selamanya
Kau tetap milik ku

To a person who has effected mylife in a significant way. Well, past few days, i was not feeling well, (eh, till today) but it was not so bad. I still managed to do the house chores and everything. Tapi biaselah, i grab this opportunity to test my hubby and effectively my love for him is stronger than yesterday. I just can say, he is soooo patient to entertain me.. Hehe. Rase macam nak demam tetiap hari..

Dont have to go to the doctor, just let him hug and kiss me and everything will get better..!!

Oh, by the way.. sad news, i dint get for the PTD, so my hope end here. I do believe setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. Quickly, i called this company to inform my position, and guess what was this director told me. "Dont tell me you are pregnant". Haha. I understand why she asked that question. Anyway, congratulation to Nolee!! SELAMAT MENJADI PTD YANG BERJAYA. TAHNIAH!! So happy for you..

I WONDER

Highlights..

a) A good report on the AP's. Ok, it becomes a hot topic these days especially with the argument between our Tun and from the Ministry itself and yesterday Dato' Seri did the press conference witnessed by the Holy Quran and the highlights was Dato Seri had burst into tears. I WONDER if it will close the case?

b) Malaysian attitude. Ok, we are very well known as "look and see" but Arwah Mohd noor Afifi Mohd Rosli against our habitual. Without a second thought, he went to help the drivers of two cars that had collided head-on just before dawn. But another car rammed into his car and killed arwah instantly. Al-Fatihah

c) Sepet sweeps 6 awards in festival film. Kudos to Yasmin Ahmad for her storyline that beat the favorite - Puteri Gunung Ledang. Like McD ads, parapappapa - Im Loving it. I dont know what is interesting in PGL? Apart from facing censorship problem, theres a lot of debate on inter-racial relationship, but anyway Sepet has proved that a good script doesnt neccessary has to include Erra, Hans or yusry. I WONDER why the box office film goes to Gangster (RM2.3M) rather than PGL? Does anyone knows the collection of PGL?

d) Berita Harian - Pelajar IPT banyak ceroboh laman web. Hahaha, no doubt as we are very well educated in this hacking thingy. In overseas they do hired people to hack the system but I WONDER if they practise it in Malaysia? Oh, FYI, Malaysia is the 2nd country in Asia Pacific behind Singapore to lead on internet users. So, I expect we have a lot of experts out there.

e) Lastly, I WONDER how did the winner create the best slogan to win a car? Any tactics? Help! FYI, since im not working so i spend most of the time to participate in the contests. Hehe, my UTPIAN friends knows better.. kan kan

f) Oh, last last. I WONDER, when will I meet my friends again? Chit chatting, gossiping, at least GIRLS day out I know my hubby will read this. Abang if they plan, allow me abang :p. and I WONDER, when will Usamah collect my wedding card and bunga telur. Hahaha

Time never say Thank You

Dear Diary,

I understand that life is never what one would wish, as life feels no guilt in contorting ones hopes, aspirations and dreams to produce a never ending array of experiences. Life is a teacher, an understatement that can be dismissed by no one. I myself have been time and time again a pawn in the game of life. Life has taken away so much from many of us, but for good reasons, so as to allow us to realize that we were blessed to have had so much to loose.

My mind was all muddled up and everything went upside down but still I remained silent. No one would ever imagine how I am feeling right now..

Dear Diary,

I hate the fact that I am still unemployed but on the other hand I do love this job -err, housewife. Each visit to our relatives, people keeps asking where my office is. Honestly, sitting alone in the living room, watching television that sometimes I couldn't pay attention is quite bored.

Waiting for PTD result is a torturing process especially when you have other job waiting for you. I love to be part of auditing field but the burden that I have to carry on is frightening me although I have desire to do it. At this time around, I just afraid my opportunity to grab this job will be taken away as I had pending the offer almost 1 1/2 months.

Attending other interviews, for me is the best way to learn about other people perspective on married woman. I had attended an interview with this BIG company. Usually, it is a normal for me to answer the question on whether I am capable to handle responsibilities at work and my personal life. But, during this interview it was totally abnormal. For almost an hour, the interviewers continuously ask about married woman issues. And my debate becomes pointless for him.

At first, I thought it was a good advice given from an expert in this field, but later during the session, I felt that I had been discriminate. For 23 years, my life is surrounded with a married woman who has excelled in her career, earning almost 5K a month!! And she managed to do all the house chores of course with the help of maid. So how could this interviewer underestimate my ability without looking at my work etiquette? What's wrong with my married title that I hold as I am not the only woman on earth who is working? Why at the first place I have been selected for the interview?

He is not testing me at all, but he depressed me with orthodox question. Period!

Dear Diary,

It is already a month after Baba's operation and next week he will start working. He is not 100% recovered yet. I cant imagine he has to drive alone all the way to Segamat, preparing for his own meals for the next few months and climbing the stairs quite a few times in a day! Tears rolling down on my cheek as I understand the word scarification means. At his age, he should not do what he is doing. I am happy to switch his place but I couldn't. As the eldest, I feel useless because I am not able to help even a penny for my family.

I wish I could pack my bag and accompany Baba until he is fully recovered, but I stop as I am looking at Dearie who is sleeping soundly besides me. I almost popped out this question to him but I am afraid. Afraid that he will give a "YES" answer. My responsible for him is greater than I ever have in this world. He needs me to complete his routine and so do I. But deep inside my heart, my heart is battling to "escort" Baba.

p/s I just received a letter from that company and as I expected, i failed for the interview. I dont mind at all if i dint get the job but i do mind especially they are more concern on my status rather that my ability. May Allah BLESS them.

READ THIS

Allah Maha Berkuasa, Maha Pengasih Lagi Maha Penyayang. Setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. Emran minta mira baca blog ini, kawan Emran yang terpaksa menempuh dugaan yang hebat dalam hidup dia. I know this person and the pain that she has gone through, seriously is not easy.

Bacalah dan ambil iktibar..

http://eddina.blogs.friendster.com/inas_blog/

Congratulations Norman Hakim and Abby Abadi

Eloo, hari ni tugas bawak baba pi hospital selesai, so balik je dari hospital tak tau nak buat ape, call Ani. Actually memang nak call die tapi tak sempat. Mane tak nyer mira mimpi yang paling best untuk die. :D kan Ani kan..

Nolee, sori tak sempat cakap kat ko, aku harap ko sempat gak bace aku nyer blog walau pun tak berape banyak.

Emm, kagum dengan Norman Hakim sebab cool mase Abby bersalin, baba cakap bukan calang-calang orang tau yang berani, sebab bende tu antara hidup and mati, but Norman Hakim ni die confident. So bravo Norman Hakim. I like this couple eversince they are getting married, ok, pls dont remember Norman Hakim in Impression. Hahaha.. Rasenye Abby la satu2 nye artis perempuan yang tak takut and tak malu pun amik gambar mase die tengah gemuk. Good good. Buat ape nak malu kan, lagi pun its natural. Okey la, nak kene balik Taman Desa. Tak leh nak cakap panjang-panjang. Adios!

Dalam Dilema

Pernah dengar tak lagu KRU dulu, it was approximately 8 years back? Well, basically i am in dilemma, again to decide which path should i go. Right now, I have to decide either PTD or Taxation even though i have less chance to be in PTD. Actually, i need to make a confirmation with this company, they already know my situation. Well, PTD suits my commitment as a wife but on the other hand Taxation is my desire and determination. I'm sure with this confident that I have, taxation will give me a BIG smile one day.

Not did they (parents, parents in law, and hubby) forced me to become a PTD officer but this position will give me more space to be with my family (err.. i mean Dearie). Lecturer? Yes, i do love lecturing, but i dont have ANY interest to pursue my master. So, with my degree qualification, i cant make more money.

The issue here is, does money influence my decision, the answer is YES. I believe from the salary that you earn, it shows your commitment and loyaly and also satisfaction!

But after all, my chances to become a PTD officer hmmphh macam dah tak de, but i just hope jangan jadi "yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran", since this offer comes from a BIG company.

Let me tell you something, IF i ve been accepted to be in this company, i can start working immediately BUT the thing is, on 29 July the PTD result will be announced. Let say, IF i pass the interview (takkan nyer) it is not a good impression for me to resign. Tak sampai sebulan kerje dah nak resign. Plus, the HR manager whom employ me is so kind and friendly. Tak sampai hati pulak..

Istikharah? Yerp, im working on it but im still puzzled for the decision. Hmm.. jadi housewife jugak yang best, tak payah fikir, nak duit mintak kat Dearie, tapi tak best sebab kene catu :D