Flashback

I nak bercerita...

Recall: FYI, i am an IT graduate under that PET**n*S sponsorhip, but unfortunately during my time, I mean exactly after I have graduated, the IT department in that BIG company has been outsourced to other company, ended up three batches, including my batch did not even have the opportunity to be interviewed by them. Kira macam anak buangan laa.. I was so indeed frustrated. You know, since my schooldays, I always dream to work with that company, to work at the most talkabout building in the world, KLCC. to me, I have done a lot of sacrification just to ensure I am closer with them.

First: After my SPM , I have been offered to study at U*T*P before the SPM result has been announced. I was so delighted to be closer to that Company until I did not apply anywhere after the result came out. Seriously, not even JPA, not even other IPTA.. 

Secondly, even better, I have been offered with the sponsorship. best lah kan, at least to me at that time, nanti sure ade interview kan, tak yah susah susah nak apply macam orang lain. Note: memang luxury ok sape yang dapat their sponsorship.. I rarely (rasa sekali dua je) mintak my mum's money.. yang lain lebih dari cukup..

Third: For my 8 months internship program, I did not apply elsewhere, mati mati I cari lobang to be as the Company's intern, I had this view - get to know somebody inside, so perhaps your application could be easier... Yes, I dapat..

BUT at that time, the Company was in the midst of outsourcing their IT department..

Heartbroken .. YES!!

They dont even call us for an interview, and they dont even inform us on what to do, the only word that I undetstand that time "we are going to be released".. 

But yes, life moves on. I have been offered to work as a lecturer at that college.. and guess what, and I resigned 6 months later when that Company sent me a letter

TO JOIN THIS MICPA program - the conversion course, sort of like an intensive program for us. They beautifully wrote the letter with an outcome that soon we would be hired by them... and that was the reason again I took up that offer. All I need to do was only study and pass the exam, they even gave me RM1K as pocket money each month for three months..

Then I passed the exam and i have been called for interviews at all of the big four companies but later on I only be accepted at E to the Y and I worked there for 4 years. PET*RO*NAS asked me to take ACCA, but I refused to do  so since I did not have any exemption, and thinking that they might be a possibility that First: tak boleh nak habiskan ACCA (since that time, I was pregnant - sape nak jage anak, penat lagi) Second: Selagi I tak habis, I wont be employed by them, as the BIG company, they could just gave thousands reason why I tak boleh join derang even though in that letter stated after 3 years that Company will call you.

AND BLESS TO ALLAH,my instinct was right. One of my colleague who was in this program has "suffered" mentally since the sponsorship unit did not help much on her. The just say, we could not guarantee you, bla bla bla, kalau ade rezeki adalah bla bla bla.. at least c'mon, call her for an interview. tak dapat takpe, heloo, it was not easy especially those who did not have any background in accountancy, took up the challenge, juggling between work and study. Now my colleague has resigned last year, and we lost contact thereafter.

and me on the other hand, was so geram cos my biggest client was that Company and the contact persons are my juniors, the IT GRADUATE who now working under HR. Yerp, they changed policy, after these 3 affected batches, they called back those IT scholars for an interview.. and kami tiga batch ni dicampak jauh jauh..

and at the end of the day, I received a letter saying that I only have to pay RM3K+ , so lepas ni I terus release..and I paid that amount, but to be released is not what I am looking for..

I dunno what is the conclusion of this story? My frustration? Not really, now I am OK, matured enough to think that rezeki is everywhere, but at times, when I felt so depressed, I couldnt stop myself to blame that Company, kalau tak kerana derang, I takkan keje kat auditing firm yang sangat stress, kalau tak kerana derang, maybe I dah amik master and by now dah jadi lecturer.. I was so determined to join that Company until I will do everything as long as they employed me.. 

But its over, i dah 28, nak masuk 30.. PET*R*O*NAS is one great history that I am going to tell my son. My husband once told me that I dont have the direction to go, I mean, I dun know what to do.Yes, I am but for sure, last time my direction -- I nak keje PET****S. jadilah ape pun. so to my husband, that is not a direction.

Oh, did I tell you, I DID wrote one long "love story" letter to one of the BIG gun in that Company, way back in 2006, telling him how frustrated I was. He was one of the CEO in one of the Company's subsidiary. I didnt know where did I get my courage to send the press button an emailed to him. Yes, he replied but still the answer given was what I have expected, which did not bring me anywhere.

How do I feel now? Tipulah kalau I cakap I tak nak masuk situ, working there is one of my childhood dream, but there are many great colorful things happened around me. Ok untuk sedapkan hati, I should be proud of who I am right now (walaupun stress) but at least my career progression went smoothly. Alhamdulillah. and alhamdulillah jugak until now, I didnt get involved in any "severe" office politics.

and I know, setiap yang berlaku ade hikmah nya. sama ada Allah nak tunjuk atau tak tunjuk ke kan..