What went wrong??

Im back from a long hiatus, am not going anywhere, need some space to console myself *sigh.. Anyway, Malaysia headlines's becomes more interesting day by day..

a)Macam mana orang boleh tersesat begitu jauh sehingga berani menegakkan benang yang basah? Macam mana orang boleh mempertahankan perkara yang terang-terangan melanggar ajaran Islam terutamanya.

Semalam sewaktu menonton Edisi Siasat, I was very very surprised, I repeat, very very surprised to watch an old lady wearing a tudung told the reporters..

"Makcik dah gerenti masuk syurga, yelah rasul cakap macam tu, kalau rasul dah cakap mestilah betul" Nauzubilllah. Dan seorang lelaki tua yang menggelarkan diri die sebagai rasul "Ada diturunkan ayat Quran yang membenarkan seseorang tu menjadi rasul".. Betapa sesat nya mereka.

The question is what we are going to do? What is our action? What went wrong with our education because some of the followers is coming from educated background. Doa memang doa, tapi kite mestilah bergerak jugak, but how?

b) I never write about Akademi Fantasia 3, yeah but now i will. Before im going too far, i am not fanatic about AF but i do admit i am a big fan of AF. All the contestants are one step ahead before getting the result although we can absolutely guess who is the winner. The standard in AF3 is too high compared to the previous AF which is good for the industry. But above all, i couldnt accept when the audinece gets too carried away with their emotion. Why you have to waste your tears? and your RM? Our music industry is too small where you can even knocked their door and asked for their signature without any fear. Kalau kat Melawati ni, sampai dah tak terlarat dah tengok artis-artis ni. So, again, dont be too pathetic.. please..

c) This is not the headlines but today is a special day for my sister, Wan Nur Azira who is celebrating her 19th Birthday today. If you are reading this, sorry dear, this year i could nt afford to buy you any present but i always pray the best for you.

Oh, Im In Love

For my lovely hubby

Mencintai mu
Seumur hidup ku
Selamanya
Setia menanti

Walau di hati saja
Seluruh hidup ku
Selamanya
Kau tetap milik ku

Hanya satu yang tak mungkin kembali
Hanya satu yang tak pernah terjadi
Segalanya teramat berarti di hati ku
Selamanya...

Mencintai mu
Seumur hidup ku
Selamanya
Kau tetap milik ku

To a person who has effected mylife in a significant way. Well, past few days, i was not feeling well, (eh, till today) but it was not so bad. I still managed to do the house chores and everything. Tapi biaselah, i grab this opportunity to test my hubby and effectively my love for him is stronger than yesterday. I just can say, he is soooo patient to entertain me.. Hehe. Rase macam nak demam tetiap hari..

Dont have to go to the doctor, just let him hug and kiss me and everything will get better..!!

Oh, by the way.. sad news, i dint get for the PTD, so my hope end here. I do believe setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. Quickly, i called this company to inform my position, and guess what was this director told me. "Dont tell me you are pregnant". Haha. I understand why she asked that question. Anyway, congratulation to Nolee!! SELAMAT MENJADI PTD YANG BERJAYA. TAHNIAH!! So happy for you..

I WONDER

Highlights..

a) A good report on the AP's. Ok, it becomes a hot topic these days especially with the argument between our Tun and from the Ministry itself and yesterday Dato' Seri did the press conference witnessed by the Holy Quran and the highlights was Dato Seri had burst into tears. I WONDER if it will close the case?

b) Malaysian attitude. Ok, we are very well known as "look and see" but Arwah Mohd noor Afifi Mohd Rosli against our habitual. Without a second thought, he went to help the drivers of two cars that had collided head-on just before dawn. But another car rammed into his car and killed arwah instantly. Al-Fatihah

c) Sepet sweeps 6 awards in festival film. Kudos to Yasmin Ahmad for her storyline that beat the favorite - Puteri Gunung Ledang. Like McD ads, parapappapa - Im Loving it. I dont know what is interesting in PGL? Apart from facing censorship problem, theres a lot of debate on inter-racial relationship, but anyway Sepet has proved that a good script doesnt neccessary has to include Erra, Hans or yusry. I WONDER why the box office film goes to Gangster (RM2.3M) rather than PGL? Does anyone knows the collection of PGL?

d) Berita Harian - Pelajar IPT banyak ceroboh laman web. Hahaha, no doubt as we are very well educated in this hacking thingy. In overseas they do hired people to hack the system but I WONDER if they practise it in Malaysia? Oh, FYI, Malaysia is the 2nd country in Asia Pacific behind Singapore to lead on internet users. So, I expect we have a lot of experts out there.

e) Lastly, I WONDER how did the winner create the best slogan to win a car? Any tactics? Help! FYI, since im not working so i spend most of the time to participate in the contests. Hehe, my UTPIAN friends knows better.. kan kan

f) Oh, last last. I WONDER, when will I meet my friends again? Chit chatting, gossiping, at least GIRLS day out I know my hubby will read this. Abang if they plan, allow me abang :p. and I WONDER, when will Usamah collect my wedding card and bunga telur. Hahaha

Time never say Thank You

Dear Diary,

I understand that life is never what one would wish, as life feels no guilt in contorting ones hopes, aspirations and dreams to produce a never ending array of experiences. Life is a teacher, an understatement that can be dismissed by no one. I myself have been time and time again a pawn in the game of life. Life has taken away so much from many of us, but for good reasons, so as to allow us to realize that we were blessed to have had so much to loose.

My mind was all muddled up and everything went upside down but still I remained silent. No one would ever imagine how I am feeling right now..

Dear Diary,

I hate the fact that I am still unemployed but on the other hand I do love this job -err, housewife. Each visit to our relatives, people keeps asking where my office is. Honestly, sitting alone in the living room, watching television that sometimes I couldn't pay attention is quite bored.

Waiting for PTD result is a torturing process especially when you have other job waiting for you. I love to be part of auditing field but the burden that I have to carry on is frightening me although I have desire to do it. At this time around, I just afraid my opportunity to grab this job will be taken away as I had pending the offer almost 1 1/2 months.

Attending other interviews, for me is the best way to learn about other people perspective on married woman. I had attended an interview with this BIG company. Usually, it is a normal for me to answer the question on whether I am capable to handle responsibilities at work and my personal life. But, during this interview it was totally abnormal. For almost an hour, the interviewers continuously ask about married woman issues. And my debate becomes pointless for him.

At first, I thought it was a good advice given from an expert in this field, but later during the session, I felt that I had been discriminate. For 23 years, my life is surrounded with a married woman who has excelled in her career, earning almost 5K a month!! And she managed to do all the house chores of course with the help of maid. So how could this interviewer underestimate my ability without looking at my work etiquette? What's wrong with my married title that I hold as I am not the only woman on earth who is working? Why at the first place I have been selected for the interview?

He is not testing me at all, but he depressed me with orthodox question. Period!

Dear Diary,

It is already a month after Baba's operation and next week he will start working. He is not 100% recovered yet. I cant imagine he has to drive alone all the way to Segamat, preparing for his own meals for the next few months and climbing the stairs quite a few times in a day! Tears rolling down on my cheek as I understand the word scarification means. At his age, he should not do what he is doing. I am happy to switch his place but I couldn't. As the eldest, I feel useless because I am not able to help even a penny for my family.

I wish I could pack my bag and accompany Baba until he is fully recovered, but I stop as I am looking at Dearie who is sleeping soundly besides me. I almost popped out this question to him but I am afraid. Afraid that he will give a "YES" answer. My responsible for him is greater than I ever have in this world. He needs me to complete his routine and so do I. But deep inside my heart, my heart is battling to "escort" Baba.

p/s I just received a letter from that company and as I expected, i failed for the interview. I dont mind at all if i dint get the job but i do mind especially they are more concern on my status rather that my ability. May Allah BLESS them.

READ THIS

Allah Maha Berkuasa, Maha Pengasih Lagi Maha Penyayang. Setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. Emran minta mira baca blog ini, kawan Emran yang terpaksa menempuh dugaan yang hebat dalam hidup dia. I know this person and the pain that she has gone through, seriously is not easy.

Bacalah dan ambil iktibar..

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Congratulations Norman Hakim and Abby Abadi

Eloo, hari ni tugas bawak baba pi hospital selesai, so balik je dari hospital tak tau nak buat ape, call Ani. Actually memang nak call die tapi tak sempat. Mane tak nyer mira mimpi yang paling best untuk die. :D kan Ani kan..

Nolee, sori tak sempat cakap kat ko, aku harap ko sempat gak bace aku nyer blog walau pun tak berape banyak.

Emm, kagum dengan Norman Hakim sebab cool mase Abby bersalin, baba cakap bukan calang-calang orang tau yang berani, sebab bende tu antara hidup and mati, but Norman Hakim ni die confident. So bravo Norman Hakim. I like this couple eversince they are getting married, ok, pls dont remember Norman Hakim in Impression. Hahaha.. Rasenye Abby la satu2 nye artis perempuan yang tak takut and tak malu pun amik gambar mase die tengah gemuk. Good good. Buat ape nak malu kan, lagi pun its natural. Okey la, nak kene balik Taman Desa. Tak leh nak cakap panjang-panjang. Adios!

Dalam Dilema

Pernah dengar tak lagu KRU dulu, it was approximately 8 years back? Well, basically i am in dilemma, again to decide which path should i go. Right now, I have to decide either PTD or Taxation even though i have less chance to be in PTD. Actually, i need to make a confirmation with this company, they already know my situation. Well, PTD suits my commitment as a wife but on the other hand Taxation is my desire and determination. I'm sure with this confident that I have, taxation will give me a BIG smile one day.

Not did they (parents, parents in law, and hubby) forced me to become a PTD officer but this position will give me more space to be with my family (err.. i mean Dearie). Lecturer? Yes, i do love lecturing, but i dont have ANY interest to pursue my master. So, with my degree qualification, i cant make more money.

The issue here is, does money influence my decision, the answer is YES. I believe from the salary that you earn, it shows your commitment and loyaly and also satisfaction!

But after all, my chances to become a PTD officer hmmphh macam dah tak de, but i just hope jangan jadi "yang dikejar tak dapat, yang dikendong berciciran", since this offer comes from a BIG company.

Let me tell you something, IF i ve been accepted to be in this company, i can start working immediately BUT the thing is, on 29 July the PTD result will be announced. Let say, IF i pass the interview (takkan nyer) it is not a good impression for me to resign. Tak sampai sebulan kerje dah nak resign. Plus, the HR manager whom employ me is so kind and friendly. Tak sampai hati pulak..

Istikharah? Yerp, im working on it but im still puzzled for the decision. Hmm.. jadi housewife jugak yang best, tak payah fikir, nak duit mintak kat Dearie, tapi tak best sebab kene catu :D